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Mortality & Meaning
and The Hiddennes of God
The Plague, (New York: Vintage International, 1948, 1975) 214-7.
They had already seen children die — for many months now death had
shown no favoritism — but they had never yet watched a child's agony
minute by minute, as they had now been doing since daybreak. Needless
to say, the pain inflicted on these innocent victims had always seemed
to them to be what in fact it was: an abominable thing. But hitherto
they had felt its abomination in, so to speak, an abstract way; they
had never had to witness over so long a period the death throes of an
innocent child. In the small face, rigid as a mask of grayish clay,
slowly the lips parted and from them rose a long, incessant scream,
hardly varying with his respiration, and filling the ward with a
fierce, indignant protest, so little childish that it seemed like a
collective voice issuing from all the sufferers there. Paneloux gazed
down at the small mouth, fouled with the sores of the plague and
pouring out the angry death-cry that has sounded through the ages of
mankind. He sank on his knees, and all present found it natural to hear
him in a voice hoarse but clearly audible across that nameless, never
ending wail: "My God, spare this child!" But the wail continued without
cease.
The Plague, (New York: Vintage International, 1948, 1975) 125-8.
I've seen too much of hospitals to relish any idea of collective
punishment. But, as you know, Christians sometimes say that sort of
thing without really thinking it. They're better than they seem.
[Father] Paneloux is a man of learning, a scholar. He hasn't come in
contact with death; that's why he can speak with such assurance of the
truth — with a capital T. Bet every country priest who visits his
parishioners and has to hear a man gasping for breath on his deathbed
thinks as I do. He'd try to relieve human suffering before trying to
point out its excellence. If [I] believed in an all-powerful God [I]
would cease curing the sick and leave that to Him. But no one in the
world believed in a God of that sort; no, not even Paneloux, who
believed that he believed in such a God. And this was proved by the
fact that no one ever threw himself on Providence completely. [S]ince
the order of the world is shaped by death, mightn't it be better for
God if we refuse to believe in Him and struggle with all our might
against death, without raising our eyes toward the heaven where He sits
in silence?

